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As I wrote about on my twitter account...

I had my endo appointment this morning...I don't even know where to start.

Lately, I have written about feeling overwhelmed and today did not help. It was just a crying fest today. Anytime I actually try to talk about why things aren't going well with my care, I just start to cry. He took my A1C but we didn't even discuss it, since we were just trying to sort through all of the emotional stuff. He said I need to reboot and his words were literally, "snap out of it" and come back in 6 weeks. I don't know if, "Snap out of it" was the best advice I'd ever gotten from an endo before...

This is such a battle and I hate it. It seems on here everyone just has great A1C's and it comes so easy to them.

I need a break. A restart button. Just like when my phone freezes all you have to do is turn it off and on and it behaves just like it's brand new...

Now to find my restart button...
7 Responses
  1. Pearlsa Says:

    Please let me know when you find the restart button I need it badly.


    We are in this together and hopefully we will get through it.

  2. Joanne Says:

    Sorry... we're going through it right now with the transistion to the pump. I'm so numb at this point I don't even think I can cry about it any more.

    I can say all the "this-to-shall-pass" type things, but that doesn't make it any easier. Just remember that we're all here for you. Big hugs.

  3. Cara Says:

    My last two endo appointments have consisted of me telling my endo, "no, you don't need to make changes to my basal rates and my ratios. I need to stop being so lazy." :/
    I know I need to "snap out of it." But sometimes it's harder than the doctors seem to think it it.

  4. Kate Says:

    Oh Lauren, I'm so sorry. It may seem like "everyone" is having an easy time of it, but that's just not true. I think that those of us who blog tend to gloss over the bad stuff too often. It's not easy for anyone. Hugs to you and I hope you're feeling rebooted soon!

  5. fagel56 Says:

    My dearest Lor-lor, It pains me to see you hurting so badly. My heart goes out to you. Looking back over the course of my lifetime, there are times in your life when it feels completely overwhelming even if you're not dealing with T1d. I understand what it is to add a medical issue into the mix with my life long struggle with depression. Please know that you are NOT ALONE...EVER. You are surrounded by people who love you and will support you through thick and thin even if the docs behave like shmucks.

  6. kim Says:

    lauren it has taken me over a year to get my A1c down to 7.0 (from almost 10) it wasn't easy and at times i felt like it would never happen. it will for you too. and as for "snap out of it", i blogged about this sort of "treatment" from our dr's and what i think should be done about it. it seems to be a common misconception that we diabetics have "control" over our disease, and the mental issues that go with it.

  7. Meghann Says:

    I had the worst A1C of my life just this past week when i visited the endo... it was quite depressing. I'm going on the pump soon, so hopefully that helps me...but who knows....Diabetes is stressful and sometimes uncontrollable. Just when you think you have it figured out, you wake up and you see that your blood sugar is 333 and your sitting there wondering-what did i do to make it that high...
    Honestly, I don't think I'll ever have it figured out... But we can't get discouraged!!!

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